Snapped. The last straw came and went.

I'm aware I haven't posted for a few days properly. Or at least like I should be doing. Its strange to me a few days of not blogging and I'm in more pieces then I should be. Here's the bottom line: currently, I'm an emotional wreak. I'm so overtired its unbelievable and currently I'm sitting in college.
There are countless people that have my back so fiercely its untrue. And if they'd seen the last forty five minutes they'd have ripped that woman - the apparent teacher who has little or no regard for anyone but herself- into a number of pieces. I'm about two inches away from walking out of college all together. Its one thing telling me something, its another belittling me to the point of mental distress. I'm not alright today. I wasn't alright yesterday either. I'd like very much to take a very sweet revenge but she'll know how it'll feel to fall out with me. I refuse to regard her as anything more then a parasite.
I'm angry. Nobody has right to treat me like scum. Somehow I doubt going out tonight is a good idea. Or if I do, it needs to be extremely early, I need to sleep for a good twelve hours undisturbed and then I might feel a little better.
Being in bits, isn't something I enjoy. As a matter of fact I hate crying in front of anyone and I had to have a mate come rescue me, otherwise I'd have been worse then I was. It takes so much to make me snap. I'm mentally drained, I'm at the end of my fight and oddly enough pick at me and I'll just fall to pieces.
But this woman won't consider me an ally anymore. There's right and wrong, there's black and white and what little respect I still had for her vanished. Appalling is the word I'd use. Completely appalling. Maybe my reaction is a combination of a lot of things, not writing, not sleeping, not eating properly, being emotional, thinking far to much and various other factors.
I've figured out one of my problems. Its harder to accept someones there then to accept someones not. Being completely convinced the entire world is against me is the easier option then knowing people care.
Another one is shutting everything out. I've done this for too long. I was fine and now I'm down again. So my problem is I have a sick mind. I'm completely fine, euphoric even, untouchable and then from that someone flicks a switch and I am gone. I am in pieces and don't know what to do with myself.
Very bipolar currently. And yes I do cycle. At least once every two weeks I have a miniature relapse and breakdown, apparently I was overdue, as its been three weeks since the last meltdown.
Maybe I really do need to go to my doctors about this.