Not really anywhere

I have a slight problem. The beautiful drug on tap. Its not a good thing. I'd been good, six weeks is a long time. Maybe not six months... but I'd felt so much better for staying away from it. Got the gremlin out of my head, I was okay, wasn't needing it, wasn't wanting it. But two joints in as many days.... bad. bad. bad.
I had a horrible dream.... I went to bed angry and upset... and woke up with it still in my head.
Last few days have been alright really, saw an old friend and we're okay now, which is good, and her girlfriend has no issues with me either which is one more detail that I've been worrying about or paranoid about or whatever that's fixed. Sunday night stopped over there's. Went home for a few hours and was there again in the evening for a joint. Its nice having them so close, its kinda like, I've got the earth under my feet again, got my rock back, its okay, someones there to ground me again. Its nice to feel like there's people on my side again. Cos for a while I've felt like a one woman army. I've kind of been lucky, hit the ground running.
I've finally got around to watching the first season of skins. And that's all I have to say today.

Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grievin'

But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breaking my heart in two
'Cause I never wanna see you a sad girl
Don't be a bad girl

But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl

Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl.
Wild World - Mike Bailey